Intro to me :D

My name is Jen, I am attending the University to receive a major in an unknown (as of now) field of study. It is truly hard for some people to make up their minds what they would like to be when they "grow up," and I am one of those people. The only problem is that I am mostly grown up and I should choose my profession soon if not at least my field of study. My indecisiveness hinders me from choosing and starting down a path to my career. This is a bad thing. Another bad thing is that I am also looking for a transfer most likely for next spring semester, maybe the University of Minnesota in the Twin Cities. It offers more programs than this University and it is a "Top Ten" School. It is a closer distance from my house than from here as well, but that would be the only downfall about transferring there. Also in the back of my mind, I have always thought about going into a military career of some sort. Being active in the National Guards while attending the University of Minnesota has been an idea of mine for quite some time. But I am one of those people who never know exactly what they want, as I have been this way my whole life.

More about me: I grew up on a dairy farm in the country, my dad is a farmer and my mom works for a corporation that assembles and distributes military parts. I have an older brother who is a telecommunications specialist and has a son who I adore very much. My nephew is 2 and a half months old and it's terrible that I don't get to see him very much since I'm away at college. Our family is very connected and everyone knows everything that's going on, which I guess in a way is both good and bad. I most likely will move away from this close-knit community of kin and work in the city or another state perhaps. I'm not moving to get away from them, I love them all dearly, but I would like a better salary and more job opportunities. I have been dating my boyfriend for over 4 months now and he is currently fulfilling his basic military training for the United States Air Force. So in some ways being a freshman I have experienced much, a feeling of freedom and independence, a feeling of loneliness and disconnectedness from the people that I love, and a feeling of fear of the unknown future pending and of doubt. It was much harder than I thought it would be, moving away from what I felt was my little life back in the country, where everything was always the same. But on the other hand at the same time, I have grown up so much without these securities and I know that there would be no other way... life changes everyday and everyone must go their separate paths for their own independence and finding of "self." I just wish I would find my own "self" soon. Through all of these trials of growing up, I have myself, my friends, my family, and God to help me find my way. If not soon, hopefully eventually. :D

My future goals and dreams include: buying my own home, having a prosperous and fulfilling career, traveling globally, having a family (spouse, kids), seeking and maintaining good relationships with people, and having a happy and meaningful life.